Tabitha’s Secret and A Drippy Inky Butterfly

Anyone know Tabitha’s Secret? Before they were Matchbox 20. I wanted to hear the song Just Plain Tired cuz that’s what I am lol. I’m still managing to make some art though.

And a good walk for Sunny Bunny.

I love the sound at the beginning of the song. And at 2:22. And the way he sings at 3:30.

A Cubist/Tenebrist Heart?

I was going for a tenebrist feel for this drawing. The word comes from the Italian tenebroso which means dark, gloomy, and mysterious. A lot of times we think love has to be all warm and fuzzy…rainbows and puppies. But Nazareth, The Everly Brothers, and Roy Orbison were right…love hurts.

I was trying to show the surfaces of the gem as well as make the heart look cracked and broken.

And I end up with Cubism lol.

I’ve never been much of a Cubism fan and I sure didn’t expect it, but I like how it’s turning out.

Inktense Drawing Practice

Dripping Mushrooms
Space Cupcake
A Mushroom

I think I’m done with the dripping mushrooms but the other two still need some work.

I watched a 30 minute lecture video about Caravaggio that was very interesting. I forget how much I like his artwork until I take the time to look at his stuff again.

I decided that I’d like to do a small drawing using the tenebrism technique. Caravaggio is given credit for inventing this style where the background is black, which helps to illuminate the image and make it stand out.

St Jerome Writing, Caravaggio. Example of Tenebrism

I’m not sure what I want to draw though. Something simple that I can get done pretty quickly…and I want to use my Inktense pencils. So, if anyone has any suggestions on something I could draw, let me know in the comments.

Hospice Kicked Us Out

Thank God hospice kicked us out. At least the doctor said she’d still provide pain medicine. Apparently, my grandma was accepted into hospice because of dementia. Last I checked, hospice accepts you when you have 6 months or less to live. Dementia is not necessarily terminal in under 6 months. It’s called the LONG GOODBYE. You can live with it for a long time.

And when they refer to her handicap . . . they use air quotes . . . They say, “What ‘handicap’?”

No, it’s not “handicap.” It exists. She was born with it. Had it for 83 years. Walks with a limp and uses canes. And for an 83 year old, if it is left untreated as it was when she was in the medical “CARE” it becomes terminal.

It breaks down her digestive system. It causes her such intense pain. And all we asked was that they reduce her suffering caused by her handicap. Not to let us run out of medicine. Which they did over and over again. It didn’t matter how much we called or asked.

The aid who changed her diaper saw the pain. She was heartbroken. The weekend aid who isn’t apart of hospice noticed. She was crying. She couldn’t let it go. So, I don’t understand hospice.

I’m flabbergasted.

Feb. 18 this woman who was walking and aware, only went to the hospital to evacuate freezing temperatures. And she was given a death sentence by this corrupt organization. They had their records wrong from the very beginning. She never fell. They thought her “handicap” was because she had fallen. And dementia became the ONLY thing they could see. They ignored the one and only reason she is now bed ridden. The reason we called hospice.

She barely even has dementia. She has all her long term memories. She wasn’t leaving her keys in the fridge. Or forgetting how to dress. Or anything like that. She couldn’t keep track of the days so well. She actually kept track better than she gave herself credit for.

Her panic disorder in addition to being in her 80’s would cause her to forget short term things. But how is that dementia? It looks more like mental decline due to aging and stress and confusion caused by her panic disorder. It’s not that hard to understand. Well, it is pretty complicated. She probably does have dementia.

But that shouldn’t mean her lifelong handicap just vanishes.

I struggle to stay quiet during injustice. Especially, when my family member is being harmed. And after being yelled at so many times by hospice nurses, I finally started yelling back and calling them out on their injustices. And I promised my mom when they showed up today, I’d stay quiet and work on my drawing. And I did. Until she came and asked my opinion. And then I went off on them. It’s injustice. It’s inhumane.

But, I did at least lay down another layer of Inktense on this mushroom piece.

Birthday Dessert Drawings

My boyfriend’s birthday was yesterday and my birthday is tomorrow so I wanted to share some dessert drawings. I love how our birthdays are close together. It makes it feel even more special.

dessert sketches

This is a sketch I did on trash printer paper. Just getting a feel for the shapes and warming up.

graphite cupcake

The main reason I chose to draw desserts is because I think cupcakes are so cute. This one is drawn using graphite pencil and sketchbook paper.

graphite macaroons

This is a drawing of an image of macarons I found on google. I’ve never tried this dessert. I’ve heard they’re not very good. I just think of Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl, eating them in the bath tub while she pouts about her many problems.

graphite three layer cake

I initially just wanted to draw cupcakes but then I wanted to draw cakes, doughnuts, and other desserts too. They look so delicious. I wont be having any of these desserts for my b-day though. I’ll be having Pizza Pie from Pizza Hut 😂.

inktense practice desserts

These sketches are done on hot pressed watercolor paper. It was my first time using this kind of paper, and I love how it felt. It was also my first time using Inktense pencils. So, I was just playing around with mixing and determining how much pigment to use. Very little pigment goes a very long way with Inktense.

Polychromos cupcake

This cupcake was drawn on tan paper using Polychromos colored pencils. I put more effort into this drawing than the others. I used a photo of a cupcake as reference (link at the end of the post) but I made a few changes to make it my own and not outright copy the image.

I blended everywhere except the background and the surface the cupcake is sitting on. I love the way colored pencils look. Also, I accidentally used Inktense on the cake part where it’s really dark.

I’ve been wanting to draw cupcakes for a long time, and I finally did it. It was fun and maybe I’ll draw some more again soon. Any other September babies out there . . . Happy Birthday to you too!

Reference Images

Healthy Black Velvet French Macarons (To Celebrate My 25th Birthday!)

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https://kitchenfunwithmy3sons.com/layered-bloody-vampire-cake-recipe/

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https://whereismyspoon.co/my-best-base-for-fondant-cakes/

https://www.123rf.com/photo_6570035_pink-cupcake.html