My Heartbreaking Reality

I’m sad to say that I haven’t been able to do any artwork. No drawing. No photography. No nothing. The only thing I am doing is caring for my grandmother 24/7.

I’m happy to help my family but this isn’t just helping. I’ve actually been helping my grandma for years now. I live in the country where high speed Internet isn’t available. So, I use the Internet at her house and I help her with things like cleaning, grocery shopping, and other stuff like that. We also help her with her bills and everything important. With our help she has been able to live independently.

Who is my grandma?

She’s a warrior. Her name is Mary and she’s 83. She’s a widow and all of her siblings and even her son has died.

She hasn’t had the easiest life but she loves God and she overcomes everything that she faces. She was born with a handicap called Hip Dysplasia and Shorter Leg Syndrome. The treatment for this handicap is daily exercise and physical therapy. And as I said, she’s been living independently. She is very active and makes sure that she uses her muscles everyday.

Long Story Short

Well, as short as I can make it. During the Texas Winter Storm in February my grandma’s power went out. She had two choices:

  • She could freeze to death as the temperatures dropped to 1 degree and lower
  • She could evacuate to the hospital

She thought she’d be safe at the hospital so she chose that. We even contacted her Doctor many times before we were able to reach her and she said she was in the safest place she could be.

That was not true

From day one we could not get a hold of the hospital. We called but no answer. When we finally got through, we were scolded for not being there. Even though Covid Restrictions would not allow it. Otherwise, her family would have been there to protect her. We asked for information about her, like is she walking. We informed them of her handicap which they completely ignored.

They had it recorded that she fell and was left alone. She never fell and she was not alone.

The miscommunication and unprofessionalism went on and on and on. We got her into a nursing home and then a rehabilitation center. Unfortunately, just one day of her not walking was too much. Her body was already deteriorating. They even yelled at us when we inquired about her walking. They said, “She was like that when she got here!” They lost all her clothes and her purse.

They even called on a Friday evening at 5pm to tell us she’s being released to our care the next morning. We managed to get them to extend it to Monday. Her plumbing still needed to be repaired from the storm damage.

It was a nightmare.

In Less than One Month

When she left our care she was walking, aware, and living independently. And in less than a month in the medical community’s care she can no longer walk. She needs 24/7 care. And she was accepted into Hospice. She has a ton of life in her but unfortunately she was given a death sentence because that’s the unfortunate truth of leaving her handicap untreated.

Go Fund Me

We like to work hard and take care of ourselves without begging for help. But my grandma doesn’t qualify for Medicaid. We were not prepared for something like this because we still had time to get prepared since she was in such good health. Her Doctor spent all of 2020 telling us she’s too healthy, which is why we couldn’t get physical therapy for her or even a prescription for a new walker.

She’s no longer too healthy.

I hate to beg. But we have gotten desperate enough to go ahead and create a Go Fund Me page. The prices for Hospice care are astronomical. If she can afford to go to a facility she will be cared for better than we can do for her. Even if we can hire in-home care for her, that is extremely expensive and will eat her money up in less than a month. Getting care for her is just not an option.

And Hospice and medicare don’t cover much. https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z

We need a Hospice Facility

So, I am writing this blog post to reach out to anyone who has it on their heart to donate money so that we can afford to get her the care she needs and deserves. We are innocent victims. She doesn’t even understand why she can’t walk. She’s been diagnosed with dementia as well and it has increased in severity during all of this. She still tries to stand which only does more damage to her skeleton and increases her pain.

That’s another thing. Her pain is excruciating but nobody will acknowledge her handicap, so she has to be an even stronger warrior than she’s ever had to be and white knuckle it.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and please do whatever God puts on your heart. I don’t want to be greedy but my goal is to get her enough donations to afford a Hospice Facility. She probably needs a few months at the most. I’m not quite sure, but anything we can do to help her will be appreciated.

My poor grandma would be embarrassed to know I am doing this. And the picture of her on the go fund me page is when she was screaming in pain while having her diaper changed. I’m so sorry to share something so bad.

And please share the link and story.

Go Fund Me Link: https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z

Why Does Pope Francis Want to Change a Verse in The Lord’s Prayer?

I heard this morning that Pope Francis wants to change the wording of The Lord’s Prayer. He said that God does not lead us into temptation, but that is Satan’s job. He said this verse implies that God leads you into Sin and a father wouldn’t do that but that a father would help you get up immediately. Instead he wants it to be, “do not let us fall into temptation.”

I enjoy digging deeper into the Bible and getting a better understanding of what it’s teaching us so let’s jump on in.

First of all, temptation isn’t actually sinning. Temptation happens before you sin or don’t sin. It’s important to distinguish between temptation and sin because, come on, who isn’t tempted to do something they shouldn’t? I know that I get tempted but I don’t always follow through on the temptation. And it’s God, and the things I’ve learned from His word, that helped me overcome the temptation.

Pope Francis is using the KJV, so I wondered what the original Greek translation is actually saying. According to Strong’s Concordance, the word “lead” (1533) could be better translated as “carry” or “bring”.

So, instead of “Lead us not into temptation,” it would be more accurate to say “please don’t carry or bring me into temptation”? I wondered what the original word “temptation” is actually saying.

The word temptation here could be better translated as “trial” (3986) So, we would be asking God, “please do not carry me or bring me into a trial or test, but deliver me from evil”? This reminds me immediately of Job, who God actually brought to Satan’s attention.

“Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job?” Job 1:8

God said to Satan there’s nobody on Earth like Job, who is upright and blameless. Satan replies that God blesses Job and if God took away all those blessings then he’d surely curse God.

“The LORD said to Satan, “Very well then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.” Job 1:12

God is outright testing Job, carrying him or leading him into temptation. The heading over this section is even titled, “Job’s First Test.” Even though He is allowing Job to be tested by Satan (who God created) He also ordered Satan not to lay a finger on the man himself.

Hmm . . . in the book of Job, I see no implication of God leading him into temptation. I see that God outright carries him into temptation which is directly brought about by Satan. So, Pope Francis is partially right that it’s Satan’s job to tempt humans into sinful behavior. But, who created Satan and gave him that job? God did.

It might be hard for some people to look at God as being in control of everything, including Satan, or whomever else he created. I feel comforted because I know that God is in charge, and I personally don’t want to be tested the way Job was tested. God allowed him to go through some pretty bad stuff. But God also protected Job while he went through these tests.

I was reminded of another verse:

“If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.” Psalm 37:23,24.

Many verses in the Bible let us know that God will get us through difficult situations that will surely happen, but he won’t let us fall. So, the Pope’s concept about asking God to not let us fall is definitely a common concept in the Bible. But I still wonder if it is an appropriate or necessary translation for this particular prayer?

The Lord’s Prayer was given by Jesus as instruction on how to pray. And if we study it carefully, and combine this one prayer with other things the Bible is teaching, I believe we can continue to deepen our understanding until the cows come home.

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Let’s look again at Pope Francis’ proposed translation “do not let us fall into temptation.” Is this a better translation? Does it give us a deeper meaning of what the prayer is asking for? Does the Pope’s reasoning behind the change make sense? Are his reasons consistent with the rest of the Bible? Does it actually water down the truth? 

I’m glad I looked up the original meanings in the concordance. Gives me a little more wisdom to chew on.