Hospice Makes You Suffer

The entire time we’ve been dealing with Hospice, they have been very insistent on using drugs on my grandmother that she responds badly to. They make her suffer and they don’t actually address the symptoms that she does have.

The Suffering She Experiences on Those Drugs

  • Increased Anxiety
  • Increased Confusion
  • Increased Aggression
  • Obsessiveness
  • Heaviness

That’s only a few but it’s more than enough. She always responds this way and these bad reactions are always ignored and dismissed. My grandma hates the drugs and demands to get rid of them. She even throws them. She refuses them because they make her feel worse.

Incompetency and Negligence

That’s what you get with Hospice. Every time, with zero exceptions, the nurse’s records have been wrong. There was a computer error apparently….every single time. Regardless of the multiple excuses they’ve used, they’re just not able to get my grandmother’s information right. They always have the wrong drugs listed and the drugs she does need are not listed.

Which is very unprofessional and dangerous.

Am I confused? Isn’t it kind of important to be careful when using drugs and dealing with a human being?

Needless to say, I got so upset. I can’t take the incompetency anymore. I feel like I’m in war and I’m getting battle fatigue. We tried to clarify the records with the nurse and she got so upset with our conversation she was ready to run away. She asked me, “Will you let me go fix this?”

I responded, “Let you? I expect you to. This is your job. You’re getting paid. Yes, please get the records right. And please manage her symptoms so that we can reduce her suffering.”

She looked at me dumbfounded.

Symptoms We Need Managed

  • Excruciating pain caused by her handicap that increases daily.
  • No sleep. She doesn’t sleep. So, some kind of sleeping aid.

When she told us the doctor she was going to speak to my heart sank. Because this doctor LOVES anti-psychotics. She’s having multiple affairs with these drugs. It’s her go-to drug for every single ailment. I predicted that she would prescribe an anti-psychotic. And what did she do?

She prescribed an anti-psychotic!! FOR SLEEP! I’m not an expert on drugs but I’ve heard Insomnia by The Dirty Heads and there’s tons of options that aren’t anti-psychotics!

What Else Did the Good Doctor Do?

She reduced her pain medicine from every 4 hours to twice a day. And said to supplement with morphine.

So, for the past 3 days her pain as increased to the point where she can’t move.

  • She cries.
  • She whimpers.
  • She can’t sit up.
  • She can’t even speak.

I can’t help but feel we’re being punished. Or I just sound paranoid.

We called today to report it and the nurse told us to wait about an hour for the morphine to kick in.

Uuuhhhhhh….don’t you know how morphine works?!? A tolerance builds up and it becomes less effective over time and something needs to be changed.

They refuse though.

I don’t know what to do. I really thought that Hospice was supposed to help reduce suffering in a person’s dying days. I was wrong. We have told them she’s suffering so they reduced her pain meds. I just don’t get it.

This poor woman is being neglected by the same corrupt medical system who neglected her and made her bed ridden in the first place. I guess 83 year olds have rationed care no matter what, even in death.

It’s Just So Heartbreaking

And it’s infuriating. Our world is corrupt. I know it. You know it. The leader’s know it. Everyone knows it. I still haven’t gotten anymore donations on her Go Fund Me page. And I understand. You really have no reason to donate. You don’t know me or my grandma. I’m sure you have your own problems. You probably have your own family members who are dealing with some kind of corruption or mistreatment in our society.

And maybe donations just aren’t the way God wants to provide for us.

I think if she could be in a facility, they could go ahead and use their dangerous and inhumane treatment and get it done a lot faster. I personally can not knowingly put my grandma through that kind of treatment. But they can. And they are trained to do it.

Ultimately, I just need her pain and suffering to stop. I pray that God let’s her rest in peace and welcomes her with open arms. And I’m going to continue trying with the Go Fund Me.

The Power of Giving

Altruism is very powerful. It changes the world. And humans naturally feel good when they’ve done a good deed. I’m not Mrs. Popularity and I don’t have social media. I don’t know anyone. So, I am depending on the kindness of strangers to donate a small amount.

I am also depending on other Christians. We’re all apart of the body of Christ and it’s our duty to help each other in times of need.

I do.

I donate money and my time whenever I can. So, there’s gotta be some karma coming back to me. Thousands of small amounts can add up to the amount we need to get her the treatment she needs in her dying days.

Thanks for reading.

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And if you don’t wanna donate to this cause then please find somewhere else that you can spread a little humanity to. Stand up to the corruption, the injustice, and just plain wrong treatment of human beings. I know we’re not the only one’s going through this in our sinking ship of a society.

My Heartbreaking Reality

I’m sad to say that I haven’t been able to do any artwork. No drawing. No photography. No nothing. The only thing I am doing is caring for my grandmother 24/7.

I’m happy to help my family but this isn’t just helping. I’ve actually been helping my grandma for years now. I live in the country where high speed Internet isn’t available. So, I use the Internet at her house and I help her with things like cleaning, grocery shopping, and other stuff like that. We also help her with her bills and everything important. With our help she has been able to live independently.

Who is my grandma?

She’s a warrior. Her name is Mary and she’s 83. She’s a widow and all of her siblings and even her son has died.

She hasn’t had the easiest life but she loves God and she overcomes everything that she faces. She was born with a handicap called Hip Dysplasia and Shorter Leg Syndrome. The treatment for this handicap is daily exercise and physical therapy. And as I said, she’s been living independently. She is very active and makes sure that she uses her muscles everyday.

Long Story Short

Well, as short as I can make it. During the Texas Winter Storm in February my grandma’s power went out. She had two choices:

  • She could freeze to death as the temperatures dropped to 1 degree and lower
  • She could evacuate to the hospital

She thought she’d be safe at the hospital so she chose that. We even contacted her Doctor many times before we were able to reach her and she said she was in the safest place she could be.

That was not true

From day one we could not get a hold of the hospital. We called but no answer. When we finally got through, we were scolded for not being there. Even though Covid Restrictions would not allow it. Otherwise, her family would have been there to protect her. We asked for information about her, like is she walking. We informed them of her handicap which they completely ignored.

They had it recorded that she fell and was left alone. She never fell and she was not alone.

The miscommunication and unprofessionalism went on and on and on. We got her into a nursing home and then a rehabilitation center. Unfortunately, just one day of her not walking was too much. Her body was already deteriorating. They even yelled at us when we inquired about her walking. They said, “She was like that when she got here!” They lost all her clothes and her purse.

They even called on a Friday evening at 5pm to tell us she’s being released to our care the next morning. We managed to get them to extend it to Monday. Her plumbing still needed to be repaired from the storm damage.

It was a nightmare.

In Less than One Month

When she left our care she was walking, aware, and living independently. And in less than a month in the medical community’s care she can no longer walk. She needs 24/7 care. And she was accepted into Hospice. She has a ton of life in her but unfortunately she was given a death sentence because that’s the unfortunate truth of leaving her handicap untreated.

Go Fund Me

We like to work hard and take care of ourselves without begging for help. But my grandma doesn’t qualify for Medicaid. We were not prepared for something like this because we still had time to get prepared since she was in such good health. Her Doctor spent all of 2020 telling us she’s too healthy, which is why we couldn’t get physical therapy for her or even a prescription for a new walker.

She’s no longer too healthy.

I hate to beg. But we have gotten desperate enough to go ahead and create a Go Fund Me page. The prices for Hospice care are astronomical. If she can afford to go to a facility she will be cared for better than we can do for her. Even if we can hire in-home care for her, that is extremely expensive and will eat her money up in less than a month. Getting care for her is just not an option.

And Hospice and medicare don’t cover much. https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z

We need a Hospice Facility

So, I am writing this blog post to reach out to anyone who has it on their heart to donate money so that we can afford to get her the care she needs and deserves. We are innocent victims. She doesn’t even understand why she can’t walk. She’s been diagnosed with dementia as well and it has increased in severity during all of this. She still tries to stand which only does more damage to her skeleton and increases her pain.

That’s another thing. Her pain is excruciating but nobody will acknowledge her handicap, so she has to be an even stronger warrior than she’s ever had to be and white knuckle it.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and please do whatever God puts on your heart. I don’t want to be greedy but my goal is to get her enough donations to afford a Hospice Facility. She probably needs a few months at the most. I’m not quite sure, but anything we can do to help her will be appreciated.

My poor grandma would be embarrassed to know I am doing this. And the picture of her on the go fund me page is when she was screaming in pain while having her diaper changed. I’m so sorry to share something so bad.

And please share the link and story.

Go Fund Me Link: https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z