My Heartbreaking Reality

I’m sad to say that I haven’t been able to do any artwork. No drawing. No photography. No nothing. The only thing I am doing is caring for my grandmother 24/7.

I’m happy to help my family but this isn’t just helping. I’ve actually been helping my grandma for years now. I live in the country where high speed Internet isn’t available. So, I use the Internet at her house and I help her with things like cleaning, grocery shopping, and other stuff like that. We also help her with her bills and everything important. With our help she has been able to live independently.

Who is my grandma?

She’s a warrior. Her name is Mary and she’s 83. She’s a widow and all of her siblings and even her son has died.

She hasn’t had the easiest life but she loves God and she overcomes everything that she faces. She was born with a handicap called Hip Dysplasia and Shorter Leg Syndrome. The treatment for this handicap is daily exercise and physical therapy. And as I said, she’s been living independently. She is very active and makes sure that she uses her muscles everyday.

Long Story Short

Well, as short as I can make it. During the Texas Winter Storm in February my grandma’s power went out. She had two choices:

  • She could freeze to death as the temperatures dropped to 1 degree and lower
  • She could evacuate to the hospital

She thought she’d be safe at the hospital so she chose that. We even contacted her Doctor many times before we were able to reach her and she said she was in the safest place she could be.

That was not true

From day one we could not get a hold of the hospital. We called but no answer. When we finally got through, we were scolded for not being there. Even though Covid Restrictions would not allow it. Otherwise, her family would have been there to protect her. We asked for information about her, like is she walking. We informed them of her handicap which they completely ignored.

They had it recorded that she fell and was left alone. She never fell and she was not alone.

The miscommunication and unprofessionalism went on and on and on. We got her into a nursing home and then a rehabilitation center. Unfortunately, just one day of her not walking was too much. Her body was already deteriorating. They even yelled at us when we inquired about her walking. They said, “She was like that when she got here!” They lost all her clothes and her purse.

They even called on a Friday evening at 5pm to tell us she’s being released to our care the next morning. We managed to get them to extend it to Monday. Her plumbing still needed to be repaired from the storm damage.

It was a nightmare.

In Less than One Month

When she left our care she was walking, aware, and living independently. And in less than a month in the medical community’s care she can no longer walk. She needs 24/7 care. And she was accepted into Hospice. She has a ton of life in her but unfortunately she was given a death sentence because that’s the unfortunate truth of leaving her handicap untreated.

Go Fund Me

We like to work hard and take care of ourselves without begging for help. But my grandma doesn’t qualify for Medicaid. We were not prepared for something like this because we still had time to get prepared since she was in such good health. Her Doctor spent all of 2020 telling us she’s too healthy, which is why we couldn’t get physical therapy for her or even a prescription for a new walker.

She’s no longer too healthy.

I hate to beg. But we have gotten desperate enough to go ahead and create a Go Fund Me page. The prices for Hospice care are astronomical. If she can afford to go to a facility she will be cared for better than we can do for her. Even if we can hire in-home care for her, that is extremely expensive and will eat her money up in less than a month. Getting care for her is just not an option.

And Hospice and medicare don’t cover much. https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z

We need a Hospice Facility

So, I am writing this blog post to reach out to anyone who has it on their heart to donate money so that we can afford to get her the care she needs and deserves. We are innocent victims. She doesn’t even understand why she can’t walk. She’s been diagnosed with dementia as well and it has increased in severity during all of this. She still tries to stand which only does more damage to her skeleton and increases her pain.

That’s another thing. Her pain is excruciating but nobody will acknowledge her handicap, so she has to be an even stronger warrior than she’s ever had to be and white knuckle it.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and please do whatever God puts on your heart. I don’t want to be greedy but my goal is to get her enough donations to afford a Hospice Facility. She probably needs a few months at the most. I’m not quite sure, but anything we can do to help her will be appreciated.

My poor grandma would be embarrassed to know I am doing this. And the picture of her on the go fund me page is when she was screaming in pain while having her diaper changed. I’m so sorry to share something so bad.

And please share the link and story.

Go Fund Me Link: https://www.gofundme.com/f/vc38z

Taking a Hiatus from my Art and Blogs

The Texas winter storm hit me pretty hard. We’re ok . . . Just dealing with the aftermath.

We have a lot pipe damage. We thought it was just this one crack in the image, but after we fixed that we discovered so much more damage.

And when my grandmother lost electricity, she had to evacuate to the hospital.

So, I’ll just be taking a break from this blog, Sunny’s blog, and my photo blog.

If I get an opportunity to work on artwork and my blogs, I definitely will.

Texas Winter Storm Pics

I live out in the country, so I knew we’d lose power. Thankfully, my neighbor has a generator so we’ve taken refuge at his house during this winter storm.

I don’t like posting on my phone but I wanted to go ahead and share some pictures. I’ve been braving the freezing temperatures to do some shooting since this is history in the making lol.

And it’s been a fun challenge to have some fresh stuff to photograph. I also have basically no experience shooting in snowy conditions.

These pictures were all shot with my phone. I’ll have to wait for my electricity to come back on and damage control to be over before I can see what I got on my camera.

In no particular order. . .

All that snow makes this walk much harder than usual
This Morning – Day Three
My snow shadow
Never tried snow flower photography lol
My poor yucca aren’t accustomed to this kind of weather

I’ll stop at six pix lol. I’ve laid under the covers for long enough. I’m exhausted and cold and soooo over the pretty snow. We’re on day three, so it shouldn’t be too much longer.

Chibi Drawing Practice

My interest in Chibi’s really got started when I was watching Hunter X Hunter with my boyfriend. I was slow to watching it because I thought it looked kinda lame. But I finally gave it a chance and it’s become one of my favorite anime’s. At the end of the episodes two of the characters show up in Chibi form and they’re SO CUTE!

I also love this style of conveying emotions. And now I wanna make my own! Below is some of my Chibi practice so far.

These next two are my most recent and I see a lot of improvement in them from when I started.

I don’t make their heads quite big enough, which throws everything off from there. They’re just SO CUTE! I love that one with his tongue sticking out. Who else watches Hunter X Hunter? Who’s your favorite characters?

I’ve also posted some snowy photography on my photo site, so go check that out.

Morgana’s Documentary Photography

Yay, my photography site is finally up. There’s only one gallery right now but I’ll be adding more throughout the year as I get them completed.

My First Photo Gallery

I decided to start with a gallery of Sunny, my dog. I’ve already made a lot of progress going through her photos for her blog, so it seemed like a good place to start.

I shoot the banal so some series you can expect to see will be:

  • Doors
  • Windows
  • Fans
  • Shoes
  • Cars
  • Bicycles
  • People’s Stuff

Stuff like that . . .

Thanks for checking it out and don’t forget to follow.

Photo Blog Coming Soon

I can’t believe It’s been over a month since my last blog post. I’ve been busy working on getting my photo blog ready to launch. I’m happy to say that I’m almost done creating my first collection of photos. I’m thinking it’ll be ready by the beginning of February.

I woke up singing The Long Run by the Eagles. I tell you, taking photos from 2001-2020 and compiling them to create my online gallery has definitely been a long run. I’ve got some great images though and I can’t wait to share them.

Aside from my photography, I’ve gotten very interested in drawing Chibis. In Japanese, the word Chibi means very short. I think they’re sooo cute and I have a lot of character ideas that are perfect for the cute Chibi style.

I bought this how-to-draw book by Mark Crilley. I watched his preview video and decided it’d be a good book to add to my home library. I’m just getting started so I’m not ready to show any of my drawings yet. I’m having a lot of fun drawing them so if you’re also interested in learning this cute style, then I highly recommend his book to get you started.

Current Art Projects

I’ve been pretty busy with a variety of projects lately. I figured a lil’ update would be nice.

Instagram

After Inktober, it took me a while to decide what I wanted to do next on my new Instagram account. I’m just gonna play around with phone photography. B&W, color photos, filters . . . whatever floats my photo boat. It’s something I’ve never actually never put any effort into, so it’s about time I give it a shot.

https://www.instagram.com/hidden_in_plain_view_art/

My Photography

This is a big one. I’m currently going through all my digital photos from 2000-2020 and working to create an online gallery of all of my documentary photography series. As soon as I am able to start adding my series I’ll be sure to announce it here. It’s a very overwhelming task, so I’m not quite sure how long it’ll take but I’m aiming for January 2021. Wish me luck.

Digital Art

I really like my fish drawing from Inktober, so I’m havin’ some fun playing around with that image in Corel Painter.

I originally pictured it in a soft color palette . . . not quite sure where I’m going with it though.

I like how this one is turning out. I love how those blacklight and black velvet posters look. That’s the style I’m going for here.

Come Follow Sunny’s Blog

Sunny Sniffing

I love my dog so much. She’s the coolest cat . . . I mean DOG, in the whole wide world.

Our lovable pets bring healing, companionship, and just brighten up our lives . . . and Sunny shines especially bright😂.

I have a ton of photos of her that I’ll be sharing over on her blog. She has one post so far so go check it out . . .

https://sunnythejackabee.wordpress.com

P.S. I’m still working on it, so there might be some issues with text and stuff that still need to be worked out.

Thanksgiving Questionnaire

My art is all about living in the moment . . . Truly experiencing the world around me and having an attitude of gratitude . . . Something we put a big focus on at Thanksgiving, but it’s something we should be doing everyday.

This is my 100th post and I didn’t know what artwork I wanted to talk about so I thought I’d share a little bit about myself. My name is Morgana. I’m from East Texas. I’m a very private person so answering questions about myself like this is pretty rare.

A Lil’ Questionnaire

If you could thank one person (living or dead) for his or her influence on your life, who would you thank?

~ I’ll go for a dead relative . . . my grandpa. He bought our property and built the house that I live in. Even though he died when I was two, the lessons of love and striving to be the best you can be, influenced my parents (and myself) in a way that I’ll always be grateful for.

What is the most valuable lesson you’ve learned this year?

~ My most valuable lesson has been to be a peace maker. Regardless of how hard it can be at times, I always feel better at the end of the day when I was patient and peaceful with the people in my life.

What are three things that always make you smile?

~ My dog, Sunny. My boyfriend, Jesse. And doing what I can to be good to my parents.

What is your favorite part of Thanksgiving?

~ The memories, for sure. I love the way the weather feels. The smell of the food. And lately, since I’ve been organizing all my photos, I’ve looked at a lot of images from Thanksgiving. And even if there are some bad memories in there, I just love how I feel when I remember all those little moments.

What random acts of kindness have you received this year?

~ Just one. I was cutting some tree branches for my grandma and her neighbor noticed and came over to help.

What is your favorite Thanksgiving memory?

~ It’s so hard to choose a favorite. But I’ll go with the variety of food I’ve tasted. I’ve had Thanksgiving meals with many different people: German, Spanish, Thai, Trailer Trash . . . And my fondest memory would have to be the smell of delicious Thai food.

What made you laugh the hardest this past year?

~ Definitely Jesse. He’s a joker. Everything he says and does makes me laugh.

What is one thing you would like to accomplish in the coming year?

~ I want to learn to sew. I can sew. But I haven’t gotten good at it and really embraced learning to make my own wardrobe.

Who is the most grateful person you know?

~ She’s not a person, but my dog sure does show gratitude.

What book, article, or blog post are you most grateful for this year?

~ ALL of MY blog POSTS! 😂 I’m so grateful to everyone who visits my blog and takes a look at my artwork. I just wanna strive to improve on it and provide stuff that people will enjoy.

What do you appreciate about the change in seasons?

~ I love the cool crisp air and the colors of the changing leaves.

What is one thing you really love to do as a family?

~ Just being with them. Healthy and comfortable and just being in the moment appreciating the life God has given us.

What is the biggest struggle in your life right now?

~ The pressure of having to juggle way too many things. It can get pretty overwhelming at times.

How do you stay focused on gratitude throughout the year?

~ I can’t help but live in a state of gratitude for everything God has provided for me. Even the bad stuff. I’m just hard wired to see the value in what I have. One way I stay focused on it is to be sure I actually show appreciation to the people I’m so grateful for.

Which of your qualities make you a good friend?

~ I’m genuine. I truly want my friends to have the best life they can and I just do my part by being genuine and sincere.

What song or poem sums up your life over the past year?

~ Carry On Wayward Son by Kansas . . . Ok, so there’s a million songs to choose from . . . The only reason I’m choosing this song is because Supernatural just ended and now that song makes me cry 😭

What is the best compliment you’ve been given this last year?

~ From Jesse . . . he actually sees how strong I am and points it out. He thinks I’m a good woman who deserves to be treated with love and kindness.

What is your favorite food to eat on Thanksgiving?

~ The rolls. They’re so warm and delicious and I always make room for them.

What is your favorite pie?

~ Pecan Pie.

What’s your favorite Christmas movie?

~ These two movies I have recorded on VHS. 1. The Christmas List with Mimi Rogers. 2. The Second Day of Christmas with Mark Ruffalo. They’re both really sweet movies.

What is your most embarrassing Thanksgiving moment?

~ When I was 15, I was at my uncle’s and I was playing some game with my cousins (D&D lol) and I kept digging into the leftover Broccoli Rice Casserole. I wasn’t paying any attention and I accidentally got a piece of foil on my fork and choked on it and got food all over my chest. My cousin thought that was the funniest thing, but it was pretty embarrassing that I was scarfing and didn’t notice the foil.

Well that’s it. I used some of the questions from this site.

I have three questions for you . . .

1. What’s your favorite pie?

2. What’s your favorite Christmas movie?

3. What’s your favorite Christmas song?

Snoopy – Schulz

Athlete Figure Drawings

I’m a Dallas Cowboy’s fan. Sean Lee and Dez Bryant are two of my favorite players. And of course, I’m a Nadal and Djokovic fan. But the sports I enjoy most are the unique ones and the ones that showcase strength.

Some of my favorites are shot put, discus throw, power lifting, etc.

Warm Up Sketches

I’m sure he wouldn’t be happy about the weight cutting I gave him 😂.

This was harder to draw than I expected.

The One-Hand Reach

While searching for poses to draw, I discovered the World Eskimo-Indian Olympics. Have you ever heard of Knucking Hopping? Or Indian Stick Pull? They have all kinds of sports that showcase skill sets for survival and endurance. It’s cool stuff. Check it out. I chose this pose because I liked the overall triangular shape:

Frank Stelges Copyright 2015

I have a lot of mistakes . . . but progress is being made. Yay!

Some Tips to Remember

Figure drawing doesn’t have to be too intimidating.

  • Warm up with gesture sketches.
  • Break your image down into basic shapes.
  • Pay attention to your negative space.
  • Stand up periodically and look at your drawing from a distance.

And don’t get discouraged when you make mistakes, just pay attention to your problem areas and try again. For more tips.

Proko has a ton of free content on youTube that you should check out too. I found the Bean Method to be very helpful.